Why You So Fat? BIG Changes in 2010.
As I said in a previous post, HAPPYaboutTHIS would become a personal blog. I'm still planning to have the site redesigned so it looks prettier (i.e. has more pictures of me) and archived articles are easier to find. But right now this ain't so bad!
Beyond alterations to HaT, 2010 is bringing lots of big changes for me. I'm now employed at a different Agency and have transitioned from spokesperson to full-time speechwriter. I'm making more money and can do more to dig myself out of the financial hole I've dug myself while partying too hard (and looking good doing it) over the past few years. I'll blog about those efforts too.
I don't really have a New Year's Resolution (besides finding a muscular someone with whom to rumble vertically at least 3 times a week without requiring me to talk to them), but I have set two goals for 2010.
The first one is to tackle my ADD cause umm, it's bad and getting worse. If you continue to read HaT you will definitely be hearing all about my ADD symptoms--you may even begin to notice them. The 2nd goal is to finally get down to a weight at which I am comfortable and to STAY THERE for good.
Since I've recently tried to make healthful eating and routine exercise a habit again, today's post is weight-related. The last time I got down to a size that I was totally happy with was my junior year in college...I maintained that weight up until I entered the real world where I worked for a lobbying firm. The hours were long, the commute was longer, and the breaks were short to non-existent. I was also living out in an exurb of Washington DC where I knew no one and felt isolated and tired all the time. I gained a bunch of weight. When I ate I either consumed too much or not enough and never the right thing. Despite knowing better, I did worse.
I've since lost the weight I gained that year but have not gotten back down to my previous size. Last year I had a metabolism test that indicated that my metabolism was near death and that in order for me to lose weight I would need to keep my caloric intake down to around 1100 calories. It was hard, but I stuck to it and lost a bunch of weight...but then February of 2009 I was diagnosed with a 5 inch fibroid tumor requiring a myomectomy. I had the surgery in July and had to take it easy for almost 4 months with only a little non-strenuous exercise here and there.
Now I'm feeling better and am ready to get back in to the game. I restarted my 1100 calorie diet last week and I am STRUGGLING to adjust. I'm not gonna lie. I have an attitude! I feel faint. *dramatic wave* However, since I've done it before I know I can do it again. Your body gets used to it. Once I increase my workouts I can SLOWLY increase my caloric intake to 1500.
All this talk about how fat I am has got me thinking about fat people, fat acceptance, and just being fat period. I had no idea that there were controversies between fat people about being fat! Some say accept your fat ass the way your fat ass is (esp. if your ass is actually fat!). Others say sure, you can accept your fat ass but you're gonna die! If you're looking for that debate here, you're in the wrong place. It's my personal belief that the only thing two fat people should ever argue about is who is gonna eat the last Popeye's biscuit. I'm totally down for that fight. I recuse myself of any other arguments. But I do wonder how much better I really look thin vs. fat and if it's worth all the effort I put in.
Please don't bore me talking about health. I'm not trying to lose weight for health reasons--kudos to those who are. I want to lose weight for purely cosmetic reasons and to increase the odds of getting pregnant some day.
But mostly cosmetic reasons....so I can go from:
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(oo la la! I love Kim K!)
I even bought a Kim K poster to put up on my wall since she is my body inspiration (she and Selma Hayek). Unfortunately, my poster got ripped and I think I may have thrown it away. Kim are you reading? Send me another?
Anyhow, if I had Kim's body...talk about H to the Izzo (do you catch my drift?). Actually, no, I take that back...I wouldn't be a ho, I wouldn't let anyone touch me. In fact, I'd think I was better than everyone else and would only stop to scowl at people who dared to look me in the eye. By the way, this could really happen...yall know there's no bitchier person than a fat person who gets thin.
And I WILL be that person. As I'm blogging, I will share my exercise routine and food journal for your viewing pleasure.
But yall better leave comments now before I get skinny and stop reading them.
January 12, 2010 1:53 PM
LMBO @ "would only stop to scowl at people who dared to look me in the eye."
hilarious!
you can do it! keep it up! :)
January 12, 2010 4:51 PM
Even though I accept my "fatabulousness", I still want to lose weight because I think I could be more fashionable if I did. I want to be able to buy cute, fahionable clothes without being afraid that I look like a fool when I wear them. I can totally understand your purpose for wanting to be thinner, even though I think you're hot anyway, because it does help with self ascceptance if you look as good on the outside as you feel on the inside.
January 12, 2010 5:20 PM
Thanks Edot! I am cracking up at your screen name "ofatself" lmaooo Yeah I'm allll about looking good in my clothes. All about it!
January 12, 2010 9:04 PM
Way to go. Kim is my inspiration too - I bought her "fit in your jeans by Friday" dvd set (it was on sale for $25... another one of my resolutions is not spending a lot of $$ lol).
How do you get a metabolic test? I think I should do that... best of luck in your quest to slim down!
January 15, 2010 7:35 AM
to rumble vertically?
January 18, 2010 7:31 PM
lmpao @ the last paragraph